She's 'happy', now leave her alone!

I'm happy. Stop asking if I'm happy. In the absence of male distractions, I have been spending a lot of time with me, myself, and I. I like them. All of me. I may be a spitfire, but I'm also fun and generous and I care about my friends, perhaps too much sometimes. So even though it may sound like I think I'm a martyr, I know I'm not. I'm not with Mo because I didn't love him. He didn't stimulate me intellectually or physically and I wasn't willing to settle no matter how much love and money he threw at me. And that's what he did, he flung his love at me without any regard for whether I was ready, willing or able to accept. Consequently, I would often get knocked in the head with an "I love you so much it hurts" when I was least expecting it. This after I had been accused of flirting with the waiter or some other ludicrous notion he had.

And the lop-sided former friend from an "unknown country" did break my heart because I allowed myself to feel vulnerable and let him in. I thought I was being brave when in fact, I was being blindly foolish. So, yeah, there have been some bumps in the road, but life's a journey and I'm enjoying it for the most part. You ride out the waves of loneliness when they come but most of the time, you're too busy living your life to feel anything but the occasional self-satisfaction of being true to yourself. And that's what no man can ever take, my integrity to myself.

Unknown Country

Hey, do you really think if you conceal your ISP after I outed your lazy-eye that I'm not going to conclude it's you? All of a sudden, I'm seeing several views that are conspicuously labeled "unknown country." Hmmm, wonder who that is? Could it be, oh, I don't know, let's see... SATAN?! lol. Couldn't resist, as I began channeling the church lady. Get a life, nothing to see here besides the occasional rants of a jaded woman (lately inspired by you).
Drive-thru please.

"I am going away to an unknown country, where I shall have no past and no name, and where I shall be born again with a new face and an untried heart." Colette